sometimes i say to carmen,do you remember a certain event and immediately realise it wasnt carmen at all it was you.i seem to often call her ali,why do i do that ?she really isnt much like you.i wish i could still walk around the shops with you,and do the things other mums and daughters do.you were so very special and i hope you know that.on the 9th july i am going to see paula obrian ,the medium.i really hope to hear from you.but maybe i wont.i know how much you beleived in mediums and the afterlife,so i am keeping my fingers crossed ,i have tried to let you go,but sometimes i cant help myself,you told me it stops you from advancing on your spiritual path so i do try.love you ali.xxxx